Haha watching china drama!! Damn nice shit going MRI soon sian...

hi ma bitches long time no post le hor haaha partially cos I lazy but I had no inspiration anw changing format to short text style so it can be more frequent and perhaps interesting? Haahhaha

Learn to appreciate the small things.

Learn to bear with the little sufferings in life.

Learn to love the people close to you.

Learn to let go like how you pick it up.

Learn to know what is truly important.

BECAUSE LIFE IS SHORT AND WE ARE MERE HUMANS.

12 July sian max

Sian sian now everyday is just so repetitive until I'm so bored haiz chingye came to visit on sat aft non with Korean rice cake which I dun really like cos chew until jaw pain only leh so I let her eat hahaha but the best part was the cakes kiwi cheesecake and carrot cake wa the cream for carrot are damn sex cfm fats crazy one... Took weight again hahaha didn't gain eh still 78kg but look at all he food I eats hahah but my tummy fats growing ohno hahaha but ohwell just eat man cos too sian liao.... Aft tat yaosen came and read FHM w me he is a grown man now hahaha ohya finding girlfriend for him anyone interested tell me pls he is super niceeeee and a teeny weeny more handsome than me (I'm sure yall know how handsome I am) teehee super short cos I'm super duper sian

11 july

Hehe another peaceful day pass by and still kdrama most of the time hahhah i realised quite alot ppl are reading this blog so i have to somehow maintain my language abit or not like paiseh only sia hahah had surprise visitors today hahah it was funny yet scary thinking abt it... my commanders came visiting AHHHHH (no joke biatch) when i was in a relax mode watching drama... thought it would  be awks max but they were surprisingly friendly i guess tats how they are without their rank hahahha had  a pretty decent and fun convo before they left hahaah sir said i mayve could pop cos ifinished most high keys (you serious?) Hahah but dun  think too much la also still down pes hahah shitballz but no reservist shiok bo teehee then came KIMBERLY (cheer for her pls) cos she bought me FHM (ohya horny face horny face) but its both our first so quite funny haha but thanks so much for buying your first FHM for me worried that i would be bored hahha the cover girl and the girls inside is whooo up there (guys visiting can:borrow for awhile) but only prob is see no touch leh so hot oso abit no point hahah like dry hump mag only sia (dun surprise if pages stixk tgt) hahaha buut lil sis bought me her mum baked banana choco muffin which is yummy yummy so im gonna eat them for supper or while watching drama haha tat sounds better... was gonna take a dump then got info from kimmm tat peishan and huishi comin so held it in haha they bought me fruits(peaches and grapes which i like alot) which is typical hospital gift instead of those fast food but both good to me cos thought tat counts man hahahah ate the peach then the shit feeling waaa (guess what im doing now? Ofc blogging la what else haha) haha gonna suppe byeeee

Lovely 10 July

Hohoho it's been 2 weeks since I have been hospitalized and I have received so much love and concern from many of you guys I'm srsly damn touched hahah cos all the support made bad days better and I will srsly treasure all these invaluable ties #iloveyall #gay#butitstrue hahaha today did pretty much nothing again which is kinda good ohya I did a skin scrap to test for fungus hahah lol shit but it's nothing la lol had pleasant visit from some wonderful guys today (the food even more power) first the most handsome military police yao sen korkor bought me oyster mee sua, fried chicken and even pizza gosh so much food but all so gist yay #fatagain so I'm real grateful for all this food he bought cos he really damn power sia one person so much food make me feel like being fat is so not a crime cos he oso eat w me hahaha so yep shiok shiok #iwanthimasmygayfriend #hhehehh #justkidding secondly came the boy with the impressive hairstyle Ryan peh who came for a short visit after school hahahh bought me chocolates biscuit and my tmr morning bfast sandwich hhaha thanks bitch let's play balls after I completely recover hahah #balls? #teehee lastly, we've got shuqi and xiong papa coming to visit they bought me double down again HAHAHA (how much food have I ate?) so I just gobble it down w coke waa daebak but guilt feeling came after I finish #fatagainagain but ohwell I'm gonna be dieting liao so I'm gonna control my food intake maybe eat like a burger less liddat ba hahahh just joking gonna eat less srsly cos really unhealthy eating these days sia unending snacking plus oily food haha I dun even feel like a patient (troll face) so I gonna diet heheh but I'm grateful for the double down cos it tasted real nice hehehe anw to all visitors pls rest well cos I understand yall have hectic shit tmr and need to wake up early tmr and I'm thankful yall still came down with the food and stuff to ease the boredom of this man hhaha # kamsahamida #grateful

Pain

This may sound weird but it's actually interesting... If you had a scale of 1-10 for pain what would each level feel like to you? Honestly, I have experienced all 10 different extents of pain before from the small sting to the excruciating pain that makes me scream like a little pussy but have you? I'm not asking you to experience it cos it's not fun when it goes above 5-6 it starts getting real irritating hhaha but just go imagine it haha sadist moment for the day haha humans are so interesting and the creator is more interesting HAHHAHA

9 July

Hey guys I'm into Korean drama!!! Haahah watching good doctor now totally addicted sia first few episodes until I calm myself down and get back my rationale then I stopped fanboying lol hahahah but it's really nice laso worth watching!!! Today really nothing happen sia so I dunno what to write hahahh paiseh shall post more random stuff next time hahaha to entertain but ohwell today jaws and lim in came in the afternoon hhaha thanks for the strawberry gifts!! Fiona jie jie came at night for a short visit before she dances off with grace to her meeting at night wa damn shiong ( if I was her I pon the meeting go out makan teehee) hhaha I guess nowadays I'm so free is cos I have done all the major shit and now just antibiotics antibiotics and even more antibiotics... Hhaha my right hip starting to hurt so I'm worry cos I dunwan do another aspiration #phobiapfoperatingtheatres hahah hope it all goes well @peace

8 July

Hallo!! Posting late again cos blogging is very physically demanding and as a patient I need to sleep more so I didnt post (hahaha bullshit I was just lazy last night hehehhe) was a good day cos did nothing which means no extra pain (yay bitches) hahaha so just nua around whole day lor and kept eating so I can gain some weight somehow which will look more normal dun ya agree hahaha... Hospital food sucks as always... Heng I got tabao from my dad which saved my delicate tongue from suffering too much hahahh and it was a good meal cos my tummy was round round after that which mean it's satisfied whoooo... Hahahh mid afternoon, Auntie Molly (which is Dao Wei mum) came by to visit and see how I was lor hahahh acty I'm quite heng not cos I kena this shit but the timing I kena is not bad la (can't say good later army come find me plus I cannot pop sia whr got goood) at least nvr kena during A levels or not tat one cry sia hahahh but I need be recruit once agn which is sian life.... Then Auntie Molly left to take care of dw grandpa so I continue to flirt w my iPad and phone until another 2 ppl came afterwards!! Miss chew and Cheryl phong lai see me liao.... Wa they come ah wa from sian becom quite lively eh cos I was just reading stuff on iPad and the mood is just like loner liddat one lor so their presence make it better plu. Miss chew bought me a big chocolate chip cookie which is shiok de lor cos chocolate always make ppl happy what haahhah so they chat w me until lights out soil but ytd lights out abit early sia 945 liddat eh walao but they need go makan oso so it's all goood hahah and I found out ytd tat I have a skin disorder? which only 4-5%  of world population have (according to Wikipedia la hhaha) called dermatographic urticaria also known as skin writing in layman terms which means if you write something on my skin with enough force, my skin will show the stuff written in rash form and it's quite clear which is kinda cool la hhaha but dun all come visit me and try it hor walao later the rash out of control I itch till siao sia hahahah anw last thing to share before I end off this post... My antibiotics session was supposed to be at 8pm then ytd the nurse come at 7.20pm to help me inject sia so I ask isn't it supposed to be 8pm then she replied: ya what now going 8 alr what lololol simi lai eh 40 more minutes leh you tell me going 8pm waaa almost vomit blood but ohwell I'm just a patient hahah cheers!!

7+7=14

Hola!! 7 july is a rather peaceful day except for the x-ray at 5plus in the morning yawnz so tired hahaah but did nothing muxh and just slept  away the day hahah... new grp ofdoctors came to review me so i guess im at another stage of treatment? Hahah but it feels the same... 8 bottles of antibiotics everyday plus scans on certain days hahaha... oh the PICC line is really useful.. fast and easy andno need kena poke for blood liao since it is in a big blood vessel so lots of blood flowing... took away one of the chest tube dressing today and the wound looks quite disturbing hahaha all visitors will get to see it from niw hahah heard that they removing the surgery thread tmr so i guess its good? Hahhaa but shit sia although lungs recovering but i no stamina at all... would feel breathless and slight dizziness even changing from lyingto sitting position... need to retrain back stamina and muscles after recovery hahaha.. lastly, dear nikki came to visit straight after his 8 to 5 army shift... hahah he looked handsome in his smart 4 siaaa #pesEofficer hahhah... he bought macs foe me which was really a pleasant surprise hahah had double fillet o fish and nuggets man wa shiok ahhhh hahaa then talked abt some army shit (experinced pes E teaching potential pes E)....hahaha enjoyed dinner w him yay!!! Somehow i feel that if im gonna stay for the whole 6 weeks, this can be a good place for a listening ear for those feeling troubled hahhaa you can drop by after a bad day to come talk to me abt it hahah 100% confidential if you trust me hahah it doesnt matter if we are close anot.. its just an avenue for you to vent haha the patient here will listen to you and sometimes give some suitable advice ahhah so keep an open mind abt it hahahha byeeeew

Belated 6 july post

8Hey guys.. today was a zuobo day but felt damn tired cos i slept at 3plus hhaha the power of technology...okay so its a sunday and  there is not much ppl and i kinda enjoy the lepak mood  cos its like so slow paced and just relax relax which was unexpected cos i tot eveyday will be like sian sian liddat hahaa but today was okay just tat i was super sleepy... daowei, antony and zihao came to visit in the afternoon and they bought me PIZZA (O YAY +1) which i was cravin and which they kept saying they wouldnt buy cos its unhealthy but in the end, they still bought it for the patient!! Whoooooo!! (Dunno whether i shd have mention the pizza part cos ys is against unhealthy pizza for me hahha but i think ys wun mind one la hor ys heheh) had some small talks w them and hahaha zihao just go jio kaisi out agn and kaisi dun so hard to get laaa hahah (dun come hospital beat me if yall see this)... as for dw hmmm i shall agree to you bringing cheng cheng to visit next time even tho (.......)  hahah inside joke guys sorry..... and to antony, we shd be spamming meat outside since you just ended your vege period but sorry im hospitalised... haha so next time bitch... after they left... i just slept and slept until hospital dinner came which was pretty much decent hahah then waited for craig and huayang to visit.... hahahs they bought me DTF (O YAY +2) for dinner which was just jackpot!!!!! So we ate and talked bullshit hahaha tot abt school life and realised it was so much fun then even tho shit happens quite alot hahsha somehow really misz those times siaaa crazy teenage years hahah... anw craig brought me a 5x5 magic cube for my hospital stay which i immediately and directly rejected (i cant solve that for nuts la at least lemme try 2x2 first la....) hahaha so we talked till late and they left hahaha cosit was quite late and nearing lights out liao.. but overall it waz a great sunday w these 5 gentlemen hahaah cheers

Negligence

Wa fkkkk forgot to save 5 July post and it's now all gone..... One hour of typing and super long content siaaaaaa siannnnnnnnn it was so nice waaaaaaaaaa I sad liao siaaa waaaa all effort gone and no mood rewrite sia sibei sian sorry guys 5 July is on hiatus but today RSSSN, THE YIs (Zeyi and Xinyi) and shuqi, tengxiong, Charles came to visit me.. Looking fwd to seeing FCK ah then RSSSFCKNZ can take selfie tgt haahhahah.... Same goes for 490 yall dun so busy la spare some time all come visit then can make hospital like market ahahhhah

Credits to RSSSN for 友记 duck rice, slurpee and fruits for lunch today

Credits to YIs for extra braised duck drumstick for lunch hahah

Credits to SCT for double mcspicy dinner oh yay!! Haahaha

-SUMMARISED-

4 July

Hi guys I'm back!!!! YAAYYYY HAHHAHA.... Okay today gonna rattle on quite abit so Sheryl prob gonna be quite pleased w the long post but I'm gonna be tired after writing teehee.. Ka yes hall start off with today schedule....fasted since midnight then went for Transesophageal Echocardiogram aka TEE (I obviously googled and copy paste that big word HAHHAHA just in case yall thought I zai liddat)... Basically they insert a tube with diameter like an adult thumb into your mouth and down your throat until heart level I guess then use sound wave to get a look at the heart... Sounded relaxing and I srsly thought it was until I was halfway through... the experience was just shittttttttttt...... First they make me gargle and swallow some awful tasting gel (that was fine) which numb my mouth and throat then they make me bite some mouthpiece which made me felt abit bondage (but that was fine too) until they insert the tube when I was not fully sedated... they literally shove the fking big black tube down my throat when they sedate me in less than a minute.... I mean hey guys can't you just wait till I'm more blur and sleepy? I was feeling like shit with a fking deepthroat and the vomit vibes kept coming but nothing came out since I fasted.... Shit sia I was thinking like wtf is wrong w the person that came up w this.... It's a brilliant idea but the deepthroat part.... It's a no for me... After the whole procedure, the ironic shit happen, I was fully sedated then... Complete knock out for half to an hour but no point alr lol dunno to call it stupid or impatient.... Came back from TEE and was preparing to feast but the transporter came for the suddenly pushed forward PICC (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter) so ate a plate of hospital noodle in rush and went to the operating room liao so busy siaaa then while waiting fell asleep again cos of the sedation of TEE before going for the PICC which was local anasthesia which I dun really like hhaha but did survive it.... The tube for PICC is purple and red and that makes me happy cos that are my fav colors wooohoooo...  Went back ward at around 5pm and started my feasting with some control (reason to be explained later) then watched a new china drama haha stupid plot but the pretty girls AAAAWWWWWWWWW must watch laaaa.... Time myself until 7pm when my group of niggas were supposed to come but all end up LATEEEEEEE..... Waiting is so boring but I was browsing insta for girls... I mean nice pics so still okay... Then bear bear came with mark and spencer goodie which made me so happy cos I saw Percy pigs hahaha but what I liked most was the chocolate stirrer for hot drinks.... It's basically a chocolate lollipop that she be melted in like hot milk to make a chocolatey drink but I just ate it in 2 bites like a lollipop hhaha cos it was more convenient and fark it tasted sibei nice can.... Tengxiong gf would be a happy girl cos he just knows what tu buy srsly endorphin boost hahaha then came Bryan Loy baobao w the double down meal (yay tats why I controlled haha rmb?) and his whole family except Brendon but it's okay haahah i feel so honored sia the family came down and uncle auntie showed me so much care and love hahah auntie even volunteered to do 24/7 food delivery for me hahaha such a nice grp of ppl... After that the fashionably late shuqi turnned up w nothing when he promised me double down (Loy bought them instead cos queue was too long for qiqi and he was already super late) and chips (guess he couldn't find it)... but him coming was already a plus plus liao hahah his talk cock always makes me laugh.... Lastly, boon wee came and we realized his gf and the gf bro work for SAF... Haahah the bro is Loy's SCS ex-encik some more... srsly small world siaaaa then Loy almost got into deep shit cos he was ignorant of this relationship at first (hahaha dumb fuck you set fire on yourself)... Had lotsa shit talk and jiaowei such that time passed relatively fast... My parents came for the last visit and they left but so touched for them coming and bringing me foood... They are a joy to have... It was quite sad that the whole gang didn't come tgt cos of their schedules cos that would be real fun but it's okay I prefer them to be here when I can move better or not I would feel quite sian being bedridden..... Hahah was depressed ytd and told my parents bout it.... One line my mum said struck me in particular... "I know the pain you feel,  but it's worse on me...." This line just shook me... I was not the only one in pain... Those that care were too... I kept reminding myself of the pain in the past but neglected the improvements made... Every painful sacrifice now would lead up to a better future tat as what I learn at that point.. Soon the second chest tube has a chance to be taken out, my hip muscles are growing back, the long term antibiotics/draw blood tube aka PICC has been set up (so I no need kena poke so many times everyday).... Things are turning brighter and I wanna get well soon!!!!!

-END-

  

3 july

Hi guys sorry for the lag post cos of the bad night 3 july was... did a minor procedure today.... aspirated 33ml of pus from my hip muscles so i guess its quite a good sign (the doctor is impressed himself) hahaha but i declare that local anasthesia is not for me... staying awake while feeling no pain but slight pressure and discomfort at the site of operation is no fun at all and i dislike being still for long periods its boring sia..... but ohwell finally got some pus out from the hips and stage 1 is done hahah tho the total no. of stages is unknown figure yet hahaha... anw one small tip for pplgoing for procedures (not cursing or what) but dun really believe the doctor when hesay its almost done cos that phrase is interpreted differently by doctors and patients.... the doctor said that to me at arnd the 10 minute mark and the procedure ended arnd 20 minutes later so ya LOL hahah mri radiologist oso same style la btw ... hahahah anw thought no one would come visit me on thursday cos its like a day whr ppl are supposed to be doing stuff ah but got w chiobu visitors came to see me yay happpyboy95 thanks fiona and sheryl for coming.... the first part of the day was so much better w yall de presence hahahah... need to apologise to fiona cos she came when i was having the procedure and even tho i set quite a time limit there was just so much delay so she ended up waiting quite abit and going shopping hhaahah ps girl.... but she was really nice to came back hahah if you are reading this dun worry aby uni so much things will be okay!! Hahah then fiona left and while playing pvz2 on my new ipad sheryl came (yay but that blur girl couldnt find the room at first ahhaaha) she bought me mr bean which i was so greatful cos havent tasted something that sweee for the day and i was happy so we talked all the way until 10pm before she left.... waaa damn nice of her to accompany me till so late sia really touched hahahh she just kept sayin how small my arms and legs got cos of all the strectmarks and bony feelings hahah but dun worry guys im still quite fat and it shd remain so cos tats my charm ah hahahahahha okay so shall end this post and wait for the heart scan later.... haiz gonnna be unconscious and deepthroat by a tube..... TEEEHEEE

Despair or acceptance?

After a whole night of ill feelings and rough sleeping, im just so tired right now at 9am in the morning... dunno what im feeling alr was just so angst ytd night and now im just like numb of this shit.. i guess i temporarily lost the ability to feel and understand my emotions... im just so shag and shit i wanna be happy but there is no joy to be felt wanna be sad but the agony is just so normal nowadays... becoming so shitty.... always hate it aft a bad emotional ride cos im always not sure how to go back to being normal agn.... being a joker, a pervert and a bastard.... i just hate the shit they put me through but i just cannot say no.... mere puppeting from the doctors and is like the pain is on me not them so yea i know its for my well-being but sighs...

Last pessi post for the day before i bring myself up agn and floox myself w positive  thoughts but when i recover from this then... am i truly happy or is it just self-deceit...

F**k lemme go home pls

AHHHHHHHH Day 6 in SGH.... shit that felt damn long i swear and suddenly I feel like I cannot take this anymore liao sia.... Everyday is just scans tests and antibiotics OMGGGGGGG and suddenly I was thinking how did I tolerated so many needle pokes fuck facing a mental breakdown siaaaaa  just all of a sudden couldn't take this hospital shit liao my goodness..... Somebody save me srsly!!!! I feel like a puppet and everyday I'm just going where I'm instructed to..... I know it's for my health but fk this is damn mentally tormenting... I'm just 18 years old fuck..... How do you expect me to suck this up  sia and I dun understand how I even did so for the past few days.... I came to hospital expecting to go home that day on 27 July and I end up being hospitalized for 6 days now in this living shithole and facing this shit in the hospital..... WHYYYYYYYYYYY.... EH FUCK I NEED TO GO HOME TO SHIT TO SHOWER AND HAVE A PROPER SLEEP... I NEED THAT AND I DESERVE IT FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK #sonotchillnow

Team of doctors

Was using my phone then suddenly 7 female doctors headed by their angmoh boss with 1 female nurse came in to check on me... the feeling was undescribeable..... hahahha not in the lustful manner la if you guys were gonna think the wrong way.... hahah some quite chio but seeing the doctors also tells me that my condition is quite serious to render such numbers but ohwelll shall just enjoy their beauty while being treated i see that the other patients are quite impressed by the formation arnd me hahahhahah anw the team is bigger than this cos i dun see the males hahaha

Rant

Its 3am in the morning and i woke up to urinate hahaha tat sounds weird but the point is my right side of the body that is infected and giving me pain really makes me sad it hurts so bad and i just want to move my limbs freely without feeling those pain in them like a paralysed... so as much as i am scared of aspiration i want to go for it cos SUCK OUT ALL THE PUS AND GIVE ME BACK MY FREE LIMBS!!!!! Ciao... hahaa just here to rant in middle of night cos the pain kinda keeps me awake hahaha comment if you can so i know you are reading and i can reply but if you no google acct oso  can whatsapp me to comment hahaha @peace

QOTD

My nigga yaosen just gave me inspiration to write with this strong quote for me.. i love it so much hahhaha "The brave is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers the fear." Nelson Mandela...i  the face of tmr aspiration im scared cos that big fat needle is gonna go into my big fat hip and its not gonna be a big fat joke for me hahaha so i fear but i know its unavoidable so the thing is always your attitude in facing it... im gonna be a brave  man tmr and face it with some guts... life is always so... if it gives you lemon, choose what you wanna do w it cos your action is what makes you who you are. If you ask me, im gonna eat that lemon cos i like sour stuff and lemon gives me vit C hahaha lame... but guys who feel shit dun worry cos you are not at your shittiest yet cos when you are at your shittiest, you cant even complain shit just be glad that there is shit to complain hahahahaha kay now i feel like shittin ughhhhhhh #jokes and #reasoning

2nd half of 2 july

Hahah had hamper from SAF even tho im just some small recruit only... always tot that only big fks get those but seems like recruits can be big fks too haha jk dun charge me... hahah after my nigga zeyi baby left after accompanying me the whole afternn after his class, new grp of niggas came hahah they are yaosen melissa and kaisi. Hahaah totally love their presence cos they bought dinner for me (yay no hospital food).... i got choices from DTF, ToriQ, yongtaufoo and finally what i ate the most.... fish soup noodle (a patient should act like one sometimes) but the mood in the ward when having dinner was totally like party only still quite surprised melissa liked hospital food guess she needs a tongue change hahah had a random dessert from yaosen which was coffee and choco biscuit which was oishina so yaosen you know what to do ah (haha i was jokin i dun really have that sweet a tooth)  they came at 1730and left at 2030 spent 3 great hours bitching bout CDW hahah easy to guess who ah and talking bout life i think i shd be a relatioship consultant and i could probably make it big before 30 with all my advices and analysis hahha but glad to know their progress and how they suck in their driving classes :p hahaha anw fun thing for the day my heart rate while lying down broke through 240bpm today and the doctor was also like wts is wrong with me hahaha anw gonna end w this new thing called no. of times poked for the day cos my fat sexy veins aparently is disappointing the needles hahahah today magic no. is 6 times hahah.

2.5/7/2014

Halfway through the day... got the schedule for tmr... gonna have an aspiration which means pus abstraction from the leg with a long needle AHHHHHH im acty very scared even tho there are painkillers available.... started the day off gloomy then watched naruto and got led by their emotions then chat w talk cock qi and was completely just distracted from all the hospital shit hahah credits to him for this time hahhah got visit from ma buddy zeyi gou gou and skype with tianci who is in usa and cock arnd until now.... kena poke poke today 5 times but 3 of them were fails nurse comment: your vein all so big but all no blood ah.... my reply: yall everyday draw whr got enough blood plus my vein mostly for show to attract girls ma hor (girls pls comment if you agree my big fat veins are sexy and attractive) nowwaiting for my next guests.... heard they gonna bring me dinner so im looking forward to their arrival hahaha update later

A gloomy morning post?

Currently 5plus in the morning.... woke up a few times during the night for a bad  cough or for no reason or for my antibiotics drip which kinda hurts... this hospital life is drving me nuts.... my right side of the body hurts so bad w an infected leg and shoulder coupled w the chest tube that sometimes just make sleeping impossible for me. My mood is like a roller coaster or maybe that would be an understatement... was happy that visitors came and was an hopeful guy... then became grumpy throughout the night cos i just couldnt get a smooth few hours sleepppp till now a timid shit so afraid of complications in my disease and dying and so wanting to leave the hospital healthily i dunno what shd i feel and my mind is in a whirl... my whatsapp convo are nonsensical from what i see and now im so afraid of even coughing hard cos i dun wanna rupture my newly reexpanded right lung... i dunno what to say so i came here to post to calm myself down but in this dark, cold, lonely hospital, motivation is hard to come by.... im weak like hell and im scared like shit...

1 july progress

On my 5th antibiotic drip for the day, quite cfmed gonna be hospitalised for 4-6 weeks for long term treatment. Been convincing myself that i will be able to fully recover even though i am not sure myself but still self-deceit is better than nothing sometimes.... had visits from shazwani (first visitor was so shocked and happy to see her!!!) my dear sister-like minah friend talked for hours and really enjoyed those fruits she bought... then came ouur chemical engineer pte lim zihao that treated me to a drink and had some random chats abt life... seems like down pes is the way to go hahaha then came 4 honourables: Miss Chew, Miss Foo, Mr Khoh and Mr Derek!! Their presence really  brought much life to the room and to me feel really encouraged from them and received so much goodies from them that im so gonna get fat agn hahaha one thing i learn today: dun give up when there is still hope... always thought it was some cliche shit but finally exp it today... tat hope blocks the despair tat comes when one gives up and holding onto it is always the way to go!! So looking fwdto seeing tmr guest list but hate the dreadful moments alone w my phone and the drip... @peace

siao siao

Alright shall start something intellectual in my own sense. Was talkng to a friend that came visiting today about university and it struck a question in me about education. Do people study to be educated or do they they study to get a job or do they study jist because they were told to and ppl arnd them were doing so? There may be other reasons to why one study but shall not explore... was exploring this cos so many juniors complaining on twitter abt studying ... if you hate it then dun do it but why still study? WHY STUDY????? If its to be educated, then there is no excuse for tat... but if it is for a job... THINK AGAIN... Do you need  to study to get a job?? Prob yes but tats cos the employers are crazy too!! Why are they obsessed with people that can do algebra, differentiation and integration thinking they wouild be the best for the jobs? I dunno but i guess its just a stigma....  why does the university admission score for biz differ so much for NUS, NTU & SMU? Higher thinking ability? But that doesnt make you the best bizman ouut thr.... so many viewpoints to explore that im going crazy.. now i know why my GPgot D cos my england really cmi :O

MRIs

Im telling you now MRI is one of the worst scans you can kena in hospital siaaaa maybe cos im fat and that hole is just not for me (its okay cos i got other holes to fill :p) but staying still for 40minutes is not fun and they wrap you up like some wtf zombie when you go in... is hot de lor so i conclude i cant tahan MRI!!!! But its a cool machine though it sucks to be the one in it but the radiographer sure enjoys the 10 more mins... 5 more mins.. 1more round and those bullshit AHHHHHH BITCHMODE ON TEEHEEE BYEEEE

Birth

Hi guys this is just some bullshit about me and my crazy thoughts while im hospitalised for probably a few weeks for some severe infection. This blog is inspired by dear miss chew  and fellow teachers that came to visit today so yea shall use this to kill some timeeeeee.... Anyway dun mind the crude language its all for fun hahahha!!